In the late Spring fo 2016, I had a wreck...

Many of my beloved friends out there who track with Sally and I don’t know this testimony. I woke up feeling so strongly that I was to share it today. In the late spring of 2016, I had a wreck…it’s probably not what you’re thinking. I had an EPIC collision with grace. This is after being what I would call an “on fire” Christian for almost 25 years. I had taught on intimacy and identity for two decades. But in a matter of a day I went from trying to earn my way into being a son through my zeal (always secretly feeling I was letting the Father down) to simply BEING a son who lives out of the lavish delight of my Father. I wasn’t really looking for it, and it wasn’t expected; but I know for certain that this collision with the shocking Grace of God has changed the course of my life. Don’t get me wrong, I understood the doctrine of grace and could explain it; but it was like a cousin that I had always heard about but never met in person. I knew of grace but didn’t KNOW grace. This encounter with Abba has changed the way I do leadership, ministry, relationships and most of all my secret life in God. I am experiencing levels of joy and freedom I never thought were possible. I was delivered from a crippling depression that had clung to me since childhood, a depression I had always tried to whitewash and tuck underneath my worship garments hoping many wouldn’t notice. I now understand rest. My incessant drive for ‘strategies’ and ‘assignments’ have been replaced by the deepest desire to go on adventures with Papa and to partner with Jesus in seeing the fulness of Heaven to come to earth. His burden is easy and His yoke is truly light. I spent years leading some awesome ministries while trying to wear Saul’s armor believing it was the normal Christian life. It hurt to wear that thing, but I had convinced myself that this was my chance to be a real deal hardcore believer. It was a subtle deception, dare I say a religious spirit. I am never going back to that way of life. My cup overflows, and I am beyond grateful for this unexpected collision in my life. Yes, I still have rough days on occasion but I’m realizing this isn’t a one time deal. I get to choose to make my home daily in this ocean of overwhelming love, acceptance, delight and grace. I am Marvin…joyful son of my Father. Praying today that you too will have a collision with this amazing Grace!